Day 20, Friday, July 10, 2015

Wow, today Masha, Tanya, Felix and I walked practically all day to places I never thought I would ever see in my life: Red Square, the church or cathedral building originally built by Ivan the Terrible that everyone knows as the symbol of Moscow, the Kremlin, the KGB offices. Just amazing.

Months ago I had seen a video of Paul McCartney in Red Square, which had really intrigued me—not only a great concert but an incredible look at the history of what the Beatles had meant to the people of Russia, and a very interesting look at Red Square—and had really made me want to visit here.

We also went into an unbelievably ornate Russian Orthodox Church with a tiny painting inside of the Mother Mary where the eye stares out at you and draws you in and which became a symbol of winning the war against the fascists.

I had no clear idea Russia had lost 29 million lives during World War II and that Moscow had essentially been bombed to the ground where almost no buildings were left standing. Walking around the huge city of Moscow I was amazed to see how normal everyday life seems here. One does not get the idea at all of it being an oppressive police state where freedoms are denied, an image it is easy to get from the perspective of the United States government. The vestiges of communism and the Soviet Union are almost completely gone; occasionally one will see a building built by Stalin or an image of Lenin, but that’s it.

Deep Listening and Healing

I had a healing with Olga today that was really amazing. She has an incredible gift, which I learned about as we were taking the train from St. Petersburg to Moscow, that she discovered several years ago and which she didn’t want, but then realized she could use it to heal others.

I have been experiencing a couple of fairly minor but annoying physical problems that I brought to her. But she deals with the spiritual or energetic source. I won’t go into the details of what she said to me, but she said one thing that shook me up. She said I needed to forgive “my wife” because it was blocking the free energy flow within me.

Well, probing a little (with Masha as interpreter) we discovered it was about me forgiving Amy. I thought I had forgiven Amy! But when she said it I could feel the emotion welling up in me, so I knew it was true. And forgiveness is not something you can make happen; you have to feel it, feel the reason to do it, such as seeing true innocence. So I have to point myself in that direction and see what comes.

But talk about deep listening! Healers and (true) psychics are the most amazing of deep listeners. They can actually hear thinking that is so hidden from us (but that still gets picked up by consciousness and made “real”) that we wouldn’t even know we were thinking it and living through it but is still having a tremendous affect on us. Incredible experience!